Delusional reality

Watching the dark horizon approaching me,
Ever so slightly faster than usual,
Your twinkling fireflies lingers in this fragile mind,
Whisper.... Chilling icy-like breathe into my spines...

Come in and feel my emptiness,
Raging war of souls clashes from within,
Will you save me or let me die?
Will you love me or watch me fade?
Come in and feel my sadness,
Wailing cries echo from every corner,
Will I go on trying or wait for you?
Will I ever understand you for the life of me?

Watching the falling rain drenching me red,
Ever so slightly colder than usual,
Your thorny vines gripping tight in this fragile mind,
Torture... Unbearable sin breaks into my spines...

Come in and feel my emptiness,
Raging war of souls clashes from within,
Will you save me or let me die?
Will you love me or watch me fade?
Come in and feel my sadness,
Wailing cries echo from every corner,
Will I go on trying or wait for you?
Will I ever understand you for the life of me?

Perhaps the mishaps are meant to be,
Hatred lies dormant inside insanity,
Hoovers forever in the astral plains...

-Seth Kaiser

The lost time...

The Gate control team^

Whoa! I'm back... Miraculously. My one month holiday has been a blast for these past few weeks. New friends and new experiences, I'll never forget 'em. around 2 weeks ago I'm volunteering for the Sarawak Rainforest World Festival 2008. Though tiring and not to mention I missed a lot of the show, I'm satisfied. Luckily I'm on morning shift during Friday. And boy! I sure danced myself crazy under the rain n muddy floor. The team from Philippines are one of the best so far. But being a gate control team was not boring. A few strange things happened during those three days. Weird customers and people gathered up to protest. Interesting sight. But that doesn't slow people down to enjoy the festival.

Then yesterday, I cosplay as Konohamaru during the KAA Cosplay Charity event at Boulevard. I messed up during the first show and quite down because of it. But later there are 2 more shows for me to redeem myself. Hehe...

Even though there's a lot of fun activities happened around me... Somehow I still feel empty inside... Maybe I'm thinking too much... Sometimes I think that I'm a nuisance to those around me. I wish to just disappear from the crowd, sometimes I feel that I don't belong... Am I crazy? I don't know too... As the time flies by me from each and every seconds, I hope I'll find MY happiness... soon....